Days pass by and it's interesting to see how the mission transforms. First, I tried to write nearly every day, then every week and now I'm starting to write every month reports. Why?
It won't be anything new if I'll say that time is relative, there are periods when time runs slow and periods when time runs too fast. And this is apart from everyday challenge for all of us that consists of an extremely fast pace of life. Some people try to resist and join the movement of slowing down and enjoying life.
Here in the US I feel this rapidness very much even I don't live a typical live and have much more opportunities to make adjustments to my lifestyle than many people around me. So why do I feel this pressure? May be I'm just trying to find an excuse to slow down or postpone my mission?
Actually one of the main goals of this mission is to find my optimal rhythm of life, my internal harmony, the balance. It's popular to think nowadays that the more you do, the happier you feel, but my experience shows that it's the destructive way. Why? Because you need to have the clear goal for your actions. Unfortunately, it's incredibly hard to find this goal, so we keep moving and running, trying and doing, without knowing will it work or no, just hoping that one day we'll do something that will finally give us some satisfaction and peace.
I used to be that way, in a constant search of happiness. Yes, happiness means for me harmony, balance, doing everything I can in order to do something meaningful in this life. It's not about ambitions, achievements, material pleasures and comfort. It's about being a complete person, living in peace with myself and the world around, feeling that I'm part of something much bigger and wiser that I still need to know and understand.
At some point I had to stop and review my life and then ... to slow down. And it was very strange to discover that I'm really at my best when I'm on a slow pace, when every little step gives you satisfaction and serves as a fuel for the next one. Slow doesn't mean unproductive. Any of us needs time for preparation, concentration and putting some order in a huge amount of experiences and information around us.
We need time to enjoy the life we live right now. Not in the future, not the the past, but right now. It sounds so common, right? So why it's so difficult to practice? Because we always want more? Or we are afraid that we'll miss something important or that someone else will get it and not us?
Returning back to the mission. The month of October is different for me. I had an important trip to England (London and Winchester) that changed many plans in October. It was nice and inspirational but at the same time it was a kind of a test for some important things I was practicing during last year. A kind of an important spiritual journey.
Now it's time to regroup and change a bit the plan. I know I'm working on something very hard that I'm failing for years. This work on self discipline, defining optimal rhythm and necessary habits is a constant fight, like one step forward, two steps back. But... My biggest achievement for now is that I'm able to keep the right focus. It was a great help to finish the first lap on the spiral and with a new knowledge I'm ready to start a new one. I'm ready. November will be a completely different month :)
To finish, some useful links of slowing down life. Have a great day!